My Shield

“Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone – to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively; but God, to a Christian, says:

“No, not until you’re satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone; with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me; to having an intensely personal relationship with me alone; discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me – exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait. That’s all. Don’t be anxious; don’t worry. Don’t look around at the things that others have gotten or that I’ve given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would ever dream of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready (for I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satisfied and exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and thus the perfect love.

And, dear one, I want you to see, in the flesh, a picture of your everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I AM. Believe it and be satisfied.”
- Author Unknown -

I randomly came across this quote that I found a while ago. I reread it an I thought it deserved to be read by many. I have been struggling with this exactly.. But I know that I need to trust God and be completely in love with him and then HE will decide when or if I am ready to have that one and only true love. It is really hard to be patient and trusting, but I know that He is my shield and why worry or fear when you know He is protecting you? I mean the power that raised Jesus from the dead is the power that is protecting me right now :) What an amazing feeling and thought. I am going to strive every day to fall more in love whith God and to allow Him to work through me in whatever way He chooses.

Thats all for now.
<3

School!!!!

Well it is October 10th now. So we are a couple of weeks into the quarter. It has been a trying quarter already. But i love it and I am so happy to be back in Ellensburg. I have a house now with 2 of my best friends and for the most part that so working out splendidly! I love having my own place. A place to call home and to be a safe haven. I get to choose what i eat and what I do and when I do it and I love it.

My class schedule is so crazy! I am in classes constantly! But they are all amazing, hard, but amazing. I actually had a really great class in my intermediate acting class today and I am very please with the outcome! They are all so emotionally draining though! It is insane!!!

Kylene and i got a job at Munchkin Land Daycare and Preschool! It is so wonderful there! It is perfect for our schedule and it is a christian daycare which makes it even better!

Church is fantastic and I love it so much and I am always inspired by what God chooses for me to learn!

My friend Nick is at Central now and I love him dearly but I never really get to see him even though we are in the same Major. It kinda sucks, but that's life I guess.

I have been trying really hard lately to keep a positive attitude and it works some of the time! God is still working on me in that area.

Something I am struggling with is that it feels like everyone has someone but I don't. Or even if they don't have a significant other, they have someone to be interested in or to talk to all the time and I feel very alone some of the time. But I know God has a plan for my life and He is going to use everything in my life to make me the person He wants me to be. It is just hard sometimes! But i will keep my chin up and n=know that God has everything under control. I just want to fit in sometimes but I know that here on earth is not where I need to fit in. I need to fit into the kingdom of heaven and I will fit in there perfectly. So why should I worry about not being popular or not having everyone want to work with me and be my best friend?
Instead of counting all of the things in my life that aren't exactly as I would like them to be i am going to choose to count the blessings that i do have because God has given me so many it is ridiculous!

Well i think I have bored you all enough.
<3 Nikki